Is it the wind? Or are you crying, mother?

Today. It's Halloween. The last day of my tiring month. The end of a short chapter in my life. 

Starting fresh again. Everyday appealing. I'm going to let myself go for now. 

(Not in a whoreish state)Maybe you'll notice me when I get out. But, you're right. I need to learn that you are going to be an ass sometimes, you are not always going to be there for me. I need to learn that we have separate lives now. We're different people. We may or may not care for each other later. And I probably repeated this a thousand fucking times in these blogs, but I have to stop thinking about it. So, what I'm going to do is start to figure myself out. I probably need new relationships to straighten me up. I need to take care of business. If I want to do what I have planned for my future, I need to do what I GOT to do. I'm going to keep my music abilities live, considering I have locked them up for about a year now. I need to GET OUT OF THE HOUSE. I know I'm wild about lazy-body-me, but I do need a real break with friends from time to time. I need to worry about me, not everyone else. I know I tend to speak my opinions out, waaaaaaaay out of hand. I need to learn to control that. As well as my maturity. I'm also going to take care of my body more. No, I don't mean eat like Sandra Bullock and exercise every single minute of my life. But I should walk or jog a few blocks every day, or do jumping jacks from here to there. And cut back on some of the junk foods I eat continuously. I need to get clean. Getting rid of this acne once and for all. I want beautiful skin. And this is how I need to do it. I need to make myself prettier more often. Not that I should be uncomfortable, or constantly wear makeup. But, as attitude and looks. It focuses on how people see me, even if I don't care what they think. I will have a busy life for the next six years of my life. And it'll just get worse. But, all this work. It leads to me being happier and excelled. I'm glad I'm piecing bits of my finishing years of high school with these lovely people. And I never lead myself into any trouble. LUV DIS FAMILY. I had a great time tonight. HALLOWEEN CANDY. Colton. Aurora. Adam. Bubba. Momma. Poppa. These are my friends today. 

My life will be wonderful. And I'll feel better. I don't need you right now. But, I will miss you. Take care of yourself. We'll be happy too. If. 

You know me. Like you know yourself.
Grown to be like everyone else.

Born to be a black sheep.

To change almost everything.

Pulling table clothes just to notice the true beauty.
I am no ordinary.
But I'm just like all of you.

You see.

I live in a house.

I'm sure you do too.